"Comfortable Liar"

Broad, is this sea
The salt, enters the wounds
My take, on you is simple
So heal, your fear
To heal, your fear

Time, spent waking off shore
The calm, before the storm
My take, from you is simple
So heal, your fear
To heal, your fear

You're such a comfortable liar
So calm

Cause I said wrong
You comfortable liar
Liar

Song by Chevelle

MY IMMORTAL


I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
But if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it wont leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that your gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along


Song by: Evanescence

ME AGAINST ME

I will not forget the day when the sides were chosen
Me against me against... me
Clothing so drenched with sweat
And the teeth they were clenched
Who can I trust when I...

Grabbed hold my enemy's neck
And choked 'till he ceased
Blistered with disbelief I awake dead
And when I awoke I couldn't believe it was me
All the time it was me

So many times we smile in pride
Putting such faith in what we've accomplished
But minutes ago we were (minutes ago we were)
Slitting our wrists, running for sympathy

Song By, Project 86

Untitled

Your life is coming undone
But your face will carry as one
The tree is naked blowing your life
But your lies, existing one by one

You never called me yesterday
Is that because you’re ashamed
Cause you’re beauty will come out straight
But your lies, your lies, your lies

(chorus)
I... can’t... go on
Why... won’t you say it and mean it
Why... won’t you say it to me and mean it too
Why... won’t you say it to my face again, so
Why... oh my friend

You never look at me the same
Is that because you’re to blame
Your beauty comes out strong
But your lies, your life, you lied

Song by: Radial Angel

This Time

I see you standing there
I see a tear in your eye
Why’d you turn away
Why’d you run
Run til this point of breaking

No walking away
No walking away

You were the one
That I looked to
I never thought
I'd see you run

I never thought I’d see you
Turn your back on
All you knew was right
You turned your back on God

No walking away
No walking away
No walking away
This time
No walking away

I see you’re back again
You’ll never run again
This time
No walking away
No walking away

Song by: Kutless

Songs Will Write The Words

Sometimes you look so beautiful
but love is just a chemical passing through my head
this time the songs will write the words to the music i've been making
the words that i've been taking have been getting longer

this time (this time)
the songs (the songs)
will write (will write)
the words (the words)
this time (this time)
the songs (the songs)
will write

I'm sick of being sick
of being thirsty for a drink
of the one thing you can get me
if i could just forget me
lock the door with the book
in raise the table and the ceiling
meanwhile books will fall in

this time (this time)
the songs (the songs)
will write (will write)
the words (the words)

this time (this time)
the songs (the songs)
will write (will write)
the words (the words)

this time (this time)
the songs (the songs)
will write THE WORDS!

Song by Twothirtyeight

"People need loving the most when they deserve it the least."
Author: John Harrigan

"Patience with others is Love, Patience with self is Hope, Patience with God is Faith."
Author: Adel Bestavros

"Love is shown in your deeds, not in your words. "
Author: Fr. Jerome Cummings

"Love is an emotion experienced by the many and enjoyed by the few."
Author: George Jean Nathan

"Love cures people, both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it."
Author: Dr. Karl Menninger

"I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love."
Author: Mother Teresa

Liz :)

THE WAY I FEEL

Lately I've been wandering
Off the narrow path
You've given me so many things that I've never had
And all in all I know it's you that always pulls me through
If you reach deep inside you’ll see my heart is true

'Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice

The world I know is pulling me
More and more each day
I feel like the odd man out as I begin to pray
Spiteful eyes are watching me
With everything I do
In the midst of darkness Lord
My spirit calls for you

(You know sometimes deep inside)
I feel like this

Song by: 12 Stones

ANCHOR

I stand with a blank expression now
And I can't believe myself
Will someone tell me how
Did I get here
I am walking
Changing slowly
I am chasing
Climbing closer

I know that I'll never be alone
You will never let me go
You are my anchor
Hold my hand
While I'm sinking in the sand
No one else could understand
You are my anchor

It seems that I lost track of time
And I can't believe my mind
Would you save me if
I reached out to you
I'm WAITING, watching, standing
I am reaching
Climbing closer

I know that I'll never be alone
You will never let me go
You are my anchor
Hold my hand
While I'm sinking in the sand
No one else could understand
You are my anchor yeah
Anchor yeah
Anchor yeah

I am walking
Changing slowly
I am chasing
Climbing closer

I know that I'll never be alone
You will never let me go
You are my anchor
Hold my hand
While I'm sinking in the sand
No one else could understand
You are my anchor yeah
Anchor yeah
Anchor yeah

Can you hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me

Song by: Lifehouse

This Time

I see you standing there
I see a tear in your eye
Why’d you turn away
Why’d you run
Run til this point of breaking

No walking away
No walking away

You were the one
That I looked to
I never thought
I’d see you run

I never thought I’d see you
Turn your back on
All you knew was right
You turned your back on God

No walking away
No walking away
No walking away
This time
No walking away

I see you’re back again
You’ll never run again
This time
No walking away
No walking away

Song by: Kutless

FREE

Ever since you went away
complicated disarray
growing tired of the masquerade
over under and through the years
I seem to recognize my fear
well today you fell away

feelings swept up inside of me
no one had said its so hard to be
don't you long to know you could be free

Song by: Redline

Going Under

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50,000 tears I've cried
Screaming, decieving, and bleeding for you,
and you still won't hear me
Going Under

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
I'm tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm Going under

Bluring and stirring the truth and the light
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

So go on and scream
Scream at me so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breath
but I keep going under

Song by: Evanescence

Estella

Estella steps in silence
Her every movement caught
Encased in gilded memory
Here it comes again
Anticipation racing through me
Thrilling with emotion
You still me

Estella, Estella you
You're missing all you see
I'm missing you
Estella, Estella you dream
You're missing all you see
I'm missing you

Estella moves in shadows
Her every whisper caught
Exhale and draw it in again
When everything gets lost in the twilight
I'll be waiting
You keep me guessing
You enigma, you dream

Estella, Estella you
You're missing all you see
I'm missing you
Estella, Estella you dream
You're missing all you see
I'm missing you my sweet

Wide-eyed, weak-kneed
Stare me through my soul, you pierce me
I know we need
Nothing short of holding nothing back
Come down to me
And I'll show you you mean worlds to me
You do

Fare thee well, my love
The last time in a whisper
She whispered back
Fare thee well, my love
I love you madly, deeply always

Song by:Ace Troubleshooter

Random Quotes from: The Invisible Man

"America is woven of many strands. I would recognize them and let it so remain. Our fate is to become one, and yet many. This is not prophecy, but description."

"There are few things in the world as dangerous as sleepwalkers."

"Eclecticism is the word. Like a jazz musician who creates his own style out of the styles around him, I play by ear."

"Good fiction is made of that which is real, and reality is difficult to come by."

"If the word has the potency to revive and make us free, it has also the power to blind, imprison, and destroy."

"The understanding of art depends finally upon one's willingness to extend one's humanity and one's knowledge of human life."

"When I discover who I am, I'll be free."

"The end is in the beginning and lies far ahead."

"I am invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me."

By: Ralph Ellison

Need

The fear I carry in my heart
The things that change and turn around me
What is it that I've become?
When is it that it's all undone?

I long to be close to you
So close I dissappear into you
Doesn't matter what I try and do
You show me what is real and true

The person that I hope to be
Not bound by anyone's opinion
A person with history
Moving to my destiny

Chorus
Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

You hold me tight in your hands
That's when I feel the peace that I crave
You make me brave to with-stand
You take me to this barren land

God I hear you speak so clear
Your words melt away my fear
Even when I'm far your near
Your love will never dissappear

Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

That's when I loose myself in you

Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

Whatever I needed
Whatever I'm feeling
I give up to you
I give up to you

Song by: The Benjamin Gate

Sleeping Awake

Reveal to me the mysteries
Can you tell me what it means?
Explain these motions and metaphors
Unlock these secrets in me
Describe your vision, the meaning is missing
Won't anybody listen?

Define the riddles of my mind
Nothing is strictly what it seems

Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Sleeping Awake
Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Can't stop Sleeping Awake

Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel what I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping Awake
Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel like I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping...

Can you see it? The writing,
Can you tell me what it means?
Translate the symbols, Enigma
Expressions keep questioning me
The message is written, the meaning is missing
Won't anybody Listen?

Prophesy, interpretate the signs
Nothing is really what it seems

Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Sleeping Awake
Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Can't stop Sleeping Awake

Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel what I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping Awake
Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel like I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping Awake

Do you see what I see?
Can you hear what I hear?
And do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
And do you feel like I feel?
And can you dream like I dream?

Do you see what I see?
Can you hear what I hear?
Or do you feel like I feel?
Or do you dream like I dream?
Anybody see me?
Anybody hear me?
Anybody feel me?
Anybody out there?!?

Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Sleeping Awake
Dreaming of Zion, Awake
Can't stop Sleeping Awake

Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel what I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping Awake
Do you see what I see?
And can you hear what I hear?
Do you feel like I feel?
Can't stop Sleeping Awake

Anybody see me?
Anybody hear me?
Anybody feel me?
Anybody out there?!?

Song by: POD

I know


Wonder what can be so bad
That it makes you want to die
I wonder what could be so tragic
Makes you want to take your life
You have your Savior on the cross
While you sit on the throne
Put yourself up on that cross
Put your Savior on the throne


And I know it's hard to take what's happening
And I know life is tough sometimes
And I know it seems like there's no hope for you
And I know your life is worth more than you can see


It's hard to see beyond your pain
When you feel so dead inside
It's hard to see what you've been given
It's hard to find the hope in life


And I know it's hard to take what's happening
And I know life is tough sometimes
And I know it seems like there's no hope for you
And I know your life is worth more than you can see


And I say look at Jesus' hands
Those scars are there for you
You know He understands
What you're going through

Song by: Seventh Day Slumber

ESTELLA


Estella steps in silence, her every movement caught, encased in gilded memory.
Here is comes again, anticipation racing through me, thrilling with enotion you still me.

(Chorus)
Estella, estella you, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you.
Estella, estella you dream, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you.


Estella moves in shadows, her every whisper caught, exhale and draw it in again.
When everything gets lost in the twilight i'll be waiting, you keep me guessing, you enigma, you dream.

(Chorus)
Estella, estella you, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you.
Estella, estella you dream, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you, my sweet.


Wide eyed, weak kneed, stare me through my soul, you pierce me nothing short of holding nothing back.
Come down to me and i'll show you, you mean worlds to me, you do.
Fare thee well my love, believe me when i say, i love you madley, deeply, always.

(Chorus)
Estella, estella you, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you.
Estella, estella you dream, you're missing all you see, i'm missing you.

Song by: Ace Troubleshooter

THE PESSIMIST


Nothing to do but work,
Nothing to eat but food,
Nothing to wear but clothes
To keep one from going nude.


Nothing to breathe but air
Quick as a flash 't is gone;
Nowhere to fall but off,
Nowhere to stand but on.


Nothing to comb but hair,
Nowhere to sleep but in bed,
Nothing to weep but tears,
Nothing to bury but dead.


Nothing to sing but songs,
Ah, well, alas! alack!
Nowhere to go but out,
Nowhere to come but back.


Nothing to see but sights,
Nothing to quench but thirst,
Nothing to have but what we've got;
Thus thro' life we are cursed.


Nothing to strike but a gait;
Everything moves that goes.
Nothing at all but common sense
Can ever withstand these woes.

By Benjamin Franklin King

I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing


I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you’re far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

I don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we’re together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

I don’t want to miss one smile
I don’t want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
I don’t want to miss a thing

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,


And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.


I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

By Robert Frost

After a while you learn the stable difference between holding a hand and changing a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and [that] company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and [that] present aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of an adult, not the greaf of a child,
And you learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.


After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much,
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure....
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.

By: Veronica A. Shoffstall

Yesterday we went to buy the things that we need for our trip. Toothpaste, lotion, etc.... Well at least my mom bought all of that stuff.
You wanna know what I bought? I bought a portable CD player and a carrying case for the player and the CD's. I can't live without music!!! I am listeniing right now as I type!!!

We also went to band rehearsal. It was ok. My mom and I are doing our last "gig" this saturday. Well it's not over for good. Just until we come back from Mexico. OMG!!!!!! I'm going to miss playing my keyboard and singing, and, and, and, and....................................................and............................... what will I do? At least I have my CD's to fall back upon when I need to sing. But what if I don't want to sing that stuff? MAN!!! I need my music!!!!! Oh well.

I'll figure something out. I will.......soon.

I guess that's it for now. So goodbye. =)

Hurray!!!

I changed the template on this site!!!! FINALLY!!! I couldn't do it!! I had to delete alot of stuff. Nothing was working out for me!! But I did it!!! All by my self. I guess that MSE class that I took came in handy!! My page didn't look all that great.

I also customized my other site. Ofcourse that one was WAY EASIER!! Because it has simple step by step procedures. If I clicked on help for this one it would log me out and do all this bunch of crazy stuff. Now all that is left is music. YUP I am going to add music to this site. I will probably work on that tomorrow, but for now, I am going home.

SEE YA!!

Well,


My mom called a couple of travel agencies to see who could give us a better price to fly over to Mexico. We got a good deal with Delta because exactly two people cancelled thier flight and we took those slots. So our tickets are going to cost $356 per ticket--round trip and no stops. Isn't that cool? Other places offered us tickets that cost close to $500 and not tax included. Wow, God really blessed us with this.


We are leaving Sunday, June 29, 2003 and coming back on July 22, 2003. Hopefully I could get a hold of a computer and the internet so that I can continue to write about my "adventure" over there. I know that I have a lot to learn and that I will learn lots of things overthere.


I hope that when I'm over there I can rest from all of the drama that is here and all of the stress and anxiety that I have with people here. I hope that people here won't do anything to ruin my trip--like hurt my family that I will be leaving here, or break my keyboard. Maybe I should take it home. I should, I am. Yeah, I don't want to take any chances.


My Goodness, I'm already missing my people!!!! What will my little sister do if someone bothers her? What will my little brother do? Will my dad and my older brother take GOOD care of them? I hope so.


Man!!! I wanted to leave without any stress and all I'm doing is putting more on my back. Ok I'll stop. I wont think about it anymore.


God please take care of them--all of them.

Prayer for Devine Correction

Dear God:

What I need from you today is mercy. I humbly ask for you to have mrecy on me!
Have mercy on me, not only for all of the unkind, unloving things I have done, but for all of the unkind, unloving things I have thought about doing.
Have mercy on me for all of the mean and nasty things I have said about myself and others.
Have mercy on me for being intolerant and impatient with myself and others.
Have mercy on me for being crtical and judgemental of myself and others.
Have mercy on me for allowing fear to caues me to act impulsively, causing pain to myself and others.
Have mercy on me for being motivated by greed, taking more that I need, then wasting it.
Have mercy on me for not telling myself and others the truth about what I feel and then being angry when I am asked to do things that I am unwilling, not ready or too tired to do.
Have mercy on me for not asking for what I need and then being angry when I don't get it.
Have mercy on me for being ungrateful for all that I have recieved.
Have mercy on me when I am comparing myself to others and being angry at them for doing what I have not done, for receiving what I have not asked for.
Have mercy on me for being afraid of doing the wrong thing in the wrong way and then blaming other people for what I have not done.
Have mercy on me when I am being arguementative.
Have mercy on me when I am whining and complaining to others about myself, or to myself about others.
Today, God, I need your mercy!
I acknowledge that by myself I can do nothing! It is only through the power of your mercy and grace that my thoughts, words and actions will be changed.
For the change that is taking place within me right now, I am so grateful.
--Iyanla Vanzant

Welcome

In this entry, I will be discussing what happened Sunday. To read about Saturday, go to my other web site. Thank you.



Father's day weekend brought about alot of anxiety in my life.

On Sunday, the people I thought I could trust turned thier backs on me. I'm a Christian, and as a Christian it is my responsibility to pull a person aside and speak to him/her about a certain sin that they have committed. I did just this and the girl I spoke to was serious about it. We were interrupted and before I knew it, she came back and thanked me for the advice that I had given her. However, she threw it all in my face when she told me that she had also heard that I had done something of the sort. I told her that what I had done was a long time ago. I also told her not to use it as an excuse to try to justify what she did. What was she trying to say? I should've stayed quite to see what dumb excuse she could come up with to justify her doing what she did. How can one judge a person based on what he/she was or did in the past? If you are new person in Christ, why should it matter what you did in the past? I mean, If you were a drunk, whould you be judged in your clean present self as a drunk? I don't think so. Apparently she didn't understand this and kept ravelling on trying to make up an excuse for what she did.

Another thing, the bible says that the first time you speak to a person, you should pull him/her aside and speak to them privately, one-on-one. If she had really taken the advice like she said, she wouldn't go telling anyone about the conversation but she would have kept it for herself. Instead she went to tell her friends and that is when everything started. Apparently, they think that I am conceited and that I am too "spirital" to hang out with them............
That is totally not true. Just because I did something the bible tells me to do doesn't mean that it is bad. She threw it back by having the others critizice me for what I told her. Afterwards, I heard from a friend that the main head of the girls, (you know, the one all the girls want to hang around with and be like) talked to one of the elders of what I had done. I didn't do anything wrong though. I did what the bible and God told me to do. And to tell you the truth, I didn't want to because I knew that this was going to happen. But I have to do what God tells me to do. So I did it and they made such a big deal about it. But you know what? They can't do anything because I know for certain that God has my back. And I bet that the elder told the head of the girls that I did the right thing. She cannot justify her little friends' action with something I did a long time ago. She just can't because that is the past, and this is the present. They know me for who I am today.

So there is a battle won, but there is still more to come. Why are they trying to fight the Word of God? Why? Can't they understand that what I did isn't bad? That for me, it is not about competition? Why do they dislike me? Because I'm a musician? Because I sing? Because I hold a leadership position in church? It isn't me, I did not ask for it. God just gave it to me. Why don't they understand that?

God help me.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Help me to endure..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
All the pain.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
All the trials..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
And all the hatred that, not the people have against me, but the hatred that the devil puts in them..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
AMEN

If you want to read the beginning of my dream, you have to go to my other site--honeyliz.diaryland.com or just click on the link and Presto!!



My dream went on and all of a sudden I wasn't in the mall anymore with my cuz, I was walking with my sister and my mom towards a pastor's house. We were going to see the new Hummer that he bought--even though in reality he hasn't boughten it but wants to. It was yellow and it looked like a stretched hummer, you know? Those Limo kind?

N-e-ways, my mom started talking to him and my sister and I started walking down the street a little further when all of a sudden, we heard this car pass by us with music that was bumping really loud. The person who was in it saw us and it turned his car around to drive by us a second time. My sister and I got a little frightened but guess who was in the car? My marine friend!!!! EDDIE!!!! And my other friend was in the car with him. I thought to myself, how do they know each other? I guess he was giving her a ride. When he got out, I gave him a big hug and kiss in the cheek. He did the same only that he gave me a kiss in the lips (not like a make out kiss but just a kiss), and I didn't think anything of it. I asked him, "what are you doing here? Didn't you just come down?" He answered, I just came down again." All of a sudden my other friend drives up and gets out of his car. He snoops around us and I ask him, "what are you doing?" he answers, "I'm watching you. I saw when he kissed you and I didn't like it." I look at him and just start laughing. (how Sad!!) He leaves after a while and Eddie tells my sister and I to get in the car so we do and we drove off.

At the end of my dream, he and I end up being a couple. But the thing is that he has a girlfriend!! So I ask him about her and he tells me that he was going to break up with her anyways. And at the end of that day he has to leave. Get this, I kiss him goodbye, only this time it is a make out kiss. how wierd is that? I mean, he's my buddy!!! When I woke up I was all wierded out!! It's because I picture myself kissing him and I start laughing. I mean it's bad enough that when I think about him I start laughing, so when I picture myself kissing him I start cracking up!! i don't see him that way. You know? He's a long time friend.

Oh boy, I've just dragged on and on and on. I'll stop here. I just wanted to get this out of my mind.

See ya!!

Wow!! this is a small world after all!!

Today I saw a person I met in middle school. I was in a program called "Future Scholars Program" and during the summer I got accepted to a "Summer Academic Program" where I met this person--the director: Fidel Ramirez.

N-E-Ways, I saw him today as I was walking with my "Cousin" in the lobby where her class is located. I guess he was coming out of the restroom and when we saw each other, we smiled. I don't think he smiled 'cause he knew me, I think he smiled out of politeness. I smiled 'cause I knew him. Then two seconds after I saw him, I saw one of my old interns who used to work in the summer program. Isn't that a wierd coincidence?

Wow, all of this brings back middle school memories. Isn't that cool? Ahhh, I'm getting all nostalgic!! Those were good times. That summer program was cool. Another cool thing is that my both my little brother and sister are in the Future Scholars Program. They have also applied for the Summer Academic Program. I hope they get in. I know they'll have as much fun as I did.

Weeee!!! I'm excited again!!!!!!

See ya!! =)

Hmmm.....


I'm not sleepy. Man!! I got alot of chores to do when I get home.........................oh well....................

Today I am very happy with myself. I made someone's day today. One of my co-worders was not feeling all that great today so when she and the rest of the office went to their regular morning meetings, I passed on a note to her. I wrote a letter of comfort but it was God who ispired me to write it. She came with tears to hug me and that totally made my day. She's so sweet. It hurts me to see people I have learned to love hurt inside. I don't know what the problem may be but I know that God touched her life. She sent me an email which is cool:


God still sits on the throne. Each of you may be going through a tough time right now but God is getting ready to bless you in a way that only He can. Keep the faith.

My instructions were to pick four people that I wanted God to bless, and I picked you. Please pass this to at least four people you want to be blessed. This prayer is powerful, and prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards. Let's continue to pray for one another. Here is the prayer:


Father, I ask you to bless my friends, relatives and email buddies reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask you to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them your peace and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through your grace. Bless their homes, families, finances, their goings and their comings. In Jesus' precious name. Amen.


Isn't that sweet? I send this to all of the poeple reading my stuff.

God Bless

P.S.I'm hungry......

Tuesday morning.............I'm sleepy again..................But I'm at work so I must stay awake.........................................................


Yesterday we went to our usual band practice and I got mad at my dad so I stopped rehearsing. I can't rehearse when I'm mad--especially if it's for God. Both him and my brother made me feel bad. Like if what I did wasn't good enough for them. Sometimes I think that everything I do isn't good enough for them........................







I need alot of prayer.............. I thank those who pray for me and those who sincerely care about me. God will greatly compensate each and everyone of you.


God bless and goodbye

LIZ


P.S.
You may have noticed that everything posted here is the same as everything posted in honeyliz.diaryland.com--it is. They are both my web pages. Just an FYI.

Well, it's monday today and I'm very tired...........................................................................

This weekend I went to Victorville to visit some family friends. It was great. I ate alot of beef and salad and rice, and ate, and ate, and ate. I was really stuffed after eating like a million steaks. We went to church and that was great. I met a guy who could play the keyboard really, really, really good. Man he was good. My brother made fun of me because the guy "burned" me playing the keyboard. When I tried to play the same way he did my brother made fun of me even more. Oh well........I guess I should practice more. This guy was really good. When he played it seemed like if he wasn't putting any effort into playing--like if it were a piece of cake. Wow, I want to play with that easiness.

That was saturday.

On sunday I went to church in the morning and that was also good. I tried calling my friend my friend who's in the Marines over at North Carolina but he had his phone turned off so oh well.

On Sunday night I went to church again and I got showered in hot chocolate. This lady accidentally drop hot chocolate all over my shirt, skirt hair, legs etc...and I had to take a shower @ 11:50 PM. Boy was I tired. I smelled like milk.....YUK!!!! I hate milk. It felt good to shower but I didn't sleep until 1:00 AM because I had to wait for my hair to dry--my blowdryer broke.....so I'm screwed......

I need some sleep. I can't think anymore. I swear my eyes are closing as I type--but I'm at work so I can't go to sleep. Oh well.....................................

Goodbye. =\

It's FRIDAY!!! Finally!!

Wow, so I got my new "Blogger" today and it's pretty cool. It's wierd, though, cause' everyone who has access to the world wide web can read what I do on a daily basis. EEEEHH!!

Wow, that means that my family in Mexico can read this to. Hmmmm....I wonder, do they translate this into different languages world wide? Imagine?! People in Russia can be reading all of this in Russian, and the people in China in Chinese, the people in the Philipines in Tagalog. WOW!!!

For the Phillipinos out there, I'm learning how to speak Tagalog..........ready? Here goes: "Ang Pangalan Koy Liz." How was that? You like that, huh? Wait!! Here's some more: "kakain ako ng tanghalian." OOOOOOHH watch out!! I'm going to turn into a tagalog speaking Mexican. Bwuahahahaha!!!

LOL

Well that's just a little bit of who I am. I'm such a nerd!!