If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say good-bye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know

But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has more in store

Since you'll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay

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On August 21 2004, my mom passed away.....and I don't know why.....almost 3 weeks after the accident.....she died.....

Today marks the 6th month that she passed away. OMG.....that was half a year ago......but it seems like it was just yesterday because it STILL hurts! I was 19!! And when my 20th birthday came along in September, she wasn't there.....she wasn't there....she wasn't there for Thanksgiving.....she wan't there for Christmas.....she wasn't there for new years.....she wasn't there for.....OMG.....she's not going to be there anymore.....

I really miss her....when she died, a big piece of me went with her....she was our strength....she was our support.....she was my mom (or like i would call her, my momma bear)And now I can do nothing but cry as I type this because so many thought thoughts rush to my head.....so many spoken words....so many unspoken words....so many promises....broken....They're consuming my heart and tearing it bit by bit....

I'm in DIRE need of love right now.....and it seems like no one is ever there when I need them....