Uncertainty

Uncertainty makes you realize how much you're not in control of your life as much as you want or thought you could be.

That is what my experience living in Oregon and my current job situation is teaching me. So I have decided to run back into God's arms and let Him take over.

In some sence, I feel like the prodigal child that left CA to try to make it on my own, and now that I have come to the realization that I cannot do it on my own, I feel like running back home...but I also feel like I made a great and brand new life up here and that I still need to learn so much more...so all I can do is run...in hopes that i can finish this race.

I think the song that can pretty much sum up the way I feel right now is "Out of Breath" by Lifehouse:

I still feel the same
Though everything has changed
The pain it cost now
I feel lost inside of my own name


But I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that Im with you
That Im with you


The past has left its stain
Now I feel the shame
I'll seize the day
If you take away
The chains of yesterday


But I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that Im with you
And I am waiting
I am waiting
I keep waiting for the day that Im with you


A new day
The sun is shining
Seems Im closer to finding
That life is more than where we are
No way that I am turning
As long as the sun is burning
Now it seems that all I want is you


I still feel the same
Though everything has changed
The pain it cost now
I feel lost inside of my own name


But I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that Im with you
And I am waiting
I am waiting
I keep waiting for the day that Im with you
That Im with you